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People love to gawp at life’s car crashes

and we currently have enough to chose from. Good news is in short supply.    Without watching a news broadcast of any kind (presentations which all too often make your teeth ache), or reading a serious newspaper (fewer and fewer of those), you open the door to the unknowable provenance of social media. 

What you read might be true, but then again … At least in the past when somebody violently disagreed with you in public, you had a face on them.  Anonymity frees thugs, bullies and fantasists. 

  And the written word and replayed image makes them real.  

To celebrate the death of privacy is to ignore that, often, animals mate alone, give birth alone, die alone. We are animals too and like every other word in the language, privacy can be interpreted positively as well as negatively.  A good example of the abuse of privacy is Grenfell.  

None of those who did wrong thought they would ever be discovered and I am immensely grateful to Martina Lees In The Times (7.9.24) for her article on the police investigation which makes plain the enormity of two tasks – running down the offenders and nailing them in law.  

But how useful is it if the response to the death of 72 loved ones is to talk about prison ? 

  More important is that a criminal record follows those responsible and that they are NEVER allowed to do the same kind of work again. Let’s not wait to build another jail and then find we can’t staff it.  Let’s haunt them all forever, as we are haunted by the blaze and the loss. 

And perish the thought of a memorial.  The world is full of things that mankind built to last forever.  And they didn’t.

  Memory lasts with people, that’s why dementia is so cruel.  If Anita Lasker Wallfisch who survived Auschwitz because she could play the cello in the prison orchestra can dismiss another Holocaust memorial (“In favour of it ?  No.  Plant flowers !”), wouldn’t it be better for the Grenfell survivors to underwrite their own trust for legal advice, English classes, any kind of support – which may just mean half a hour with somebody who doesn’t look for a label for you – that would make it less possible for the abuse of the modest earning multiracial group, the donkeys of our flying horse society sidelined into the deathtrap of a tower block, to be dismissed ever again ? 

Or to make

Steve McQueen’s short silent film (Grenfell), shot looking into the tower from a helicopter immediately afterwards, widely available ? 

Upskirting so called (as soon as something questionable gets a trendy name, you know it is about to be dismissed)

is the stolen image of what is between a woman’s legs for the double thrill of theft and sex for the person with the camera.  Often dismissed because there is no direct contact between abused and abuser, upskirting has led to the trial in France of a woman many years married whose husband drugged her so he could watch other men sexually abuse her.  I don’t know the details of what sexual abuse constitutes in this  case, French law differing from ours.   But from the cheap thrill of sneaking up the skirts of strangers , this pathetic excuse for a person graduated to years of drugging and hiring out his wife as an inert body to be abused.  Forget “sexual” – think about abuse.  Rape isn’t about sex, it’s about power and he disempowered his wife into complicity.  And I bet money changed hands.

So why isn’t France outraged about this ?   Well, you know,

little people – plain people, elderly people.  Unglamorous.  Small town, tourist industry.   So we are left to infer that as long as the female has the vital aperture, who cares what she is or what she looks like ?   Like every other Western country I know of, France likes its vaginas with pretty faces if they are going to receive press attention.        

The mobile phone has made this possible, the taking of the pictures upskirts without physical contact, the spread of those images and the keeping of them, so there is a record which led the French police to the rest of this revolting story.  And this unfortunate woman in the midst of the wreckage

of her domestic life.

And if I resist a positive end to this dark writing it is because you can’t applique sunshine and flowers on top of this destruction and pain – alongside the blood products scandal and the sub postmasters.  Less a question of  “what have we come to ?” than how did we get there ? Or maybe we always were.

It isn’t just the sky that’s dark.   

“Everything after 40 is maintenance” said model Linda Evangelista,

though the word  is missing from certain vocabularies.   The owner of the upstairs flat, for one. 

Three loosened tiles on the front step

soon became four and I knew her first words at contact would be “Can’t we do it cheaper ?” which is the beginning of weeks of proving procrastination is the thief of time.   If we asked the agents who let her flat, they’d have to have a board meeting to decide whether the step was in or out and whether they were responsible.  By which time the front step would have begun to disappear.  

So I called not the cheapest but the most reliable, let the current tenant know what I was doing, put my money (!) where my mouth is, and had it properly fixed, no false promises, by a Levantine as charmed with me as I with him (“You look like my mother !”) same afternoon I called.  Done.  The building dates from1900 and even when Poodle Twinkers (not her name) lived there,

she was a three act drama, and I lived through it several times.  Not again if I can avoid it.

Maintenance or rather lack of it is what has caused the newly appointed Labour MP for Ilford South Jas Athwal to verbally retrench  –  although  “ I had no idea” following denial isn’t the forward for anybody except  a ripoff artist.  He has seven properties managed and let by an agency.   Too often, bullying deferred.  The heart sinks. 

It is significant  and shameful to the new Labour government that tenants were afraid to talk to the press,

and if they did, would not give their names.  They are hanging on to their flawed, damp and infested housing for dear life, getting a roof over your head being at premium in the city.      And all for lack of maintenance.  Surely there is a Parliamentary device by which Mr. Athwal gets a period of time to clean up the housing  which he would have had to do directly before he got too big for his boots,

fire the “agency”, and behave like a human.  Never mind what he says, let’s see what he does.  Poverty is not a sin and it’s always with us.

I wonder where maintenance fits in with exercise – I only ask because most of the runners and joggers and  “just going to the gym-ers” I see look less than cheerful. And I walk, every day.   Of course I understand the maintenance of exercise in sport, though better in dance – the late great Margot Fonteyn said she could substitute other exercise for two weeks  but then

it was back to the barre.

Maintenance used to mean having my hair trimmed every six to eight weeks maximum.  But without telling the saga, I have found somebody who can cut hair – rare nowadays, one of the skills declining, like being a sempstress – and triumphantly in 2024, reduced my visits from four times a year to three.

Maintenance  means having the  rugs (x3) and chairs (x2) cleaned in house once a year and worth every penny.  It means having the window cleaner  – when I can get hold of him – three times a year.   And it means “you tell me” timed visits from the osteopath who comes to the house, thus obviating the journey home which often undoes what you have just paid to have done.

Maintenance means washing bedding and eating properly.   It means being wary of headlines that offer you not just the quick fix  (weight loss) but incidentally better skin, hair, nails, resistance to diabetes and  – blast of trumpets – retarded ageing.  Oh and did I mention it’s a great nail polish remover ? 

Snake oil lives.  What you hear is an old fashioned snort.

Maintenance has to do with upkeep.  You do for the car, the council does it if you’re lucky for the road and the pavement, maybe even the traffic flow – though so far, sadly, no control over bikes.  You do it for where you live and if you are lucky, y ou are met half way by the owner, though rarely any specially appointed intermediary.. 

Abandon maintenance and fall to rack and ruin ?   Sounds horribly familiar.

Apparently three days of lying flat (Tues 13, and on)

reduced the inflammation in my back where I have damaged  ligaments.   So thank you for your acknowledgements and  kindness.  I can now sit up to half an hour– rigged with support – “but don’t push it …” Not a chance, miss.

I won’t bore you with a list of what I read – just to say – that if you are a reader, it matters. Didn’t miss watching television: nothing to watch – which is beginning to include the structure of the so called national news, which takes a story and beats it to schnitzel,

over and over.

While the loss of life on the yacht Bayesian would be under any circumstances regrettable, the endless emphasis on its status as super yacht, as on those lost as moneyed, moneyed and  again  moneyed  got right up my nose.  Is there some inference here that the more you pay, the safer you are ?  Because nobody wins against the sea.  That’s why the RNLI is so important.       

Change is fine when it happens  over there – before  it affects you or after you have gone – but living through change  (upheaval, even) is a different beast.    I have never before recoiled from watching  BBC News.   It is repetitious, I don’t like the format.  And there isn’t much else.

The BBC4 reruns of Parkinson included Billy Connolly,

Rod Hull and the Emu, and me.  No I didn’t watch, but two of my oldest friends did and sent me once in a lifetime letters.  And Hamish Clark wrote to tell me that I had understood Connolly’s humour better than any foreigner he had ever seen  – a big compliment from a Scot.  And I recalled my last meeting with Parky at Waitrose in Kings Road, recognising him from the side.  It’s not a nose you could forget, and purest Yorkshire.

We walked slowly towards the exit and caught up till outside on the pavement, we faced each other.  He asked if I was still working (he was ten years older than me).  I said no.  “That’s a shame”  he said.  And I asked “Why, Michael ?”  “Because” he told me “ you were good at what you did, radio and tv – and that’s rare.”   I thanked him and we shook hands.  A gent and a total pro.

Last week too Phil Donahue died, a journalist of wide experience and competence who understood that housewives weren’t all stupid, just because they were home in the afternoon all over America, and built a massively successful “You talk about …” type show of which Oprah said “No Donahue, no Winfrey.” 

He recorded five shows over here to one of which I was party.  Walking along to my place, I heard a building buzz just like a swarm and grabbed an assistant , asking “What is that ?”  He took me to a place where I could see the audience and I watched Donohue warm them up – shaking hands, introducing himself, introducing them to each other,  joshing and teasing and being warm and pleasant, moving all through the people of whom he said “they are the show.”.   He clearly believed it.  It was inspirational.   .

And Nell McCafferty died,

a fine Irish journalist, feminist and lesbian at a time when it was a fight to put those three things in one sentence in Ireland.   For International Women’s Day that year, the evening began with Mary Anderson talking about being  gay in Ireland, and Nell, not wanting her to feel isolated, stood up, affirming “And I’m Nell McCafferty from the Irish Times and I’m a lesbian too !” To be joined by the much respected Sister Benvenuto who had done terrific work with the homeless in Dublin, leaping to her feet with “And I’m  a nun !”  It remains in my mind one of the most racketty and good humoured television occasions, we all talked and laughed and I never got a word in edgeways, very good for me.

I don’t like the term “passing” for death. Passing and failing was the language of exams – and my parents didn’t approve of that, either. So of death,  I usually say “Gone to glory” .   That’s some of what I thought of, lying there. 

My mother (Jane Taylor 1900-89) used to refer to something she really could have done without as “a pain in the neck.”

Over my lifetime we heard more about  “ a pain in the a-“ (buttocks,not beast of burden) but that was the US form.  I prefer arse , a Great British word, from the Old English, of German origin.

But both fade in the reality of a pain in the back.

On my proto-Olympic search for nomination as Twerp of the Year, I have put my back into spasm and getting right will take time.  I can’t sit for long – leaving the loo is more of a relief than using it, food is strictly refuel  – so sadly 

no annalog this week

The only good osteopath I have ever known is coming on Wednesday unless she has an earlier cancellation and I hope to regroup for

the week commencing  26 August 2024, provided we are all still  here

take care and wish me better

… different.   

Most of the time we are quite comfortable with difference, “it would be a sad old world if we were all the same” we say comfortably to each other. It’s OK as long as it works for us and doesn’t get in our way.  This has led to a long long time of not discussing the impact of our immigration policy and sheer numbers on our systems, educational, social, and medical for starters.   

And then something happens like last week in Britain – not Bangladesh where roughly the same number have died as we traced and are hauling into court, or Sudan, deep in civil war – but all too close to home.   And we have to look hard and think.

When did being liberal

came to mean being soppy ?   I though being liberal was being generous, opening your mind to difference, accepting that a decent person is just that, never mind how they vote, the colour of their skin, who they go to bed with or how they worship. But alongside that generosity, you had to find a way to be honest and practical and communicate, even when what you had to say was not popular. And face up the fact there were people you disliked and would dislike, no matter who they were or where they came from

Being liberal is taking a terrible bashing at the moment on both sides of Atlantic  –  though I long to see the Harris/Walz ticket in the US take Donald Trump’s snide interpretation of “Make America Great Again !” and say “Yes, by all means, great again – by inclusion not exclusion –  new blood, new directions, a nation built as it was, on refugees of every kind – political, social, racial, religious.”  

Here we are busy being bitchy as only the British can be.  Sarky about the police, sarky about the King – should have said and done more, sooner.   Sarky about the Prime Minister who doesn’t always get it right .  

But the man hit the ground, running – and Mr.Starmer  if you are listening, never doubt that this is the time to say as well as do, because  there is a real complaint here and it has been coming these 40 years.  It should be acknowledged, it won’t go away.

40 years ago or so, I sat in a Tyne Tees Television

studio , while a major player in the then Labour Party (Denis Healey) was presented to the audience and questions were taken. And the first person on her feet was what we now call a perfectly ordinary woman in her forties (because nobody knows what working class means, anymore), who raised her hand and got to her feet.  “When” she demanded “are you going to listen to u s ?   You never listen, you take us for granted, y ou take the North for granted …”   And successive governments did.

This has resulted in the violent expression of rampant prejudice,

inflamed by the internet and lack – real lack  – and frustration because you can’t get anybody to listen (annalog/cries unheard) in the established channels.  A lack that is not going to be met by a programme for new builds – and anyway we need a census first on what is available.   We need access to doctors who don’t just write another prescription.   And so on, and so on – you have heard it all before.

I am no kind of analyst, political or social.   I just watch and listen and write about what I see and hear, and inevitably, think.   But I was struck meeting Tanya (not her name) in the street the other day, my American neighbour, who is highly placed in technology, who commented negatively, unbidden (she and her husband have 2 children) on social media.   “And TikTok” she said “is China’s cancerous gift to the West.”  

And I am going right on doing what I can do, saying please and thank you and sharing good news wherever I can – hurray for the people who gave a damn, who cleared up and checked up on their neighbours, who hit the street in wholly peaceful protest. But that doesn’t mean I don’t know something is terribly wrong.

Wal said “Something a bit more upbeat ? 

I think the last few have been a bit ..”  and I could hear his face. I said  “I don’t think so, they just didn’t appeal to you” knowing that Wal is not a writer and is an erratic reader (money and Irene Nemirovsky’s best novel).  Upbeat in a week when people are stabbed in the street and rally to riot with the help of the gutless Tommy Robinson and accursed social media ?  Tall order.

Last Thursday I went to see new work by Ilona Szalay (father Hungarian, mother Canadian) which were painted on glass .  I had to look up its long and interesting history.  And I’d cheerfully have robbed a bank for a trilogy called Landscape 1, 2 and 3.   The weather was stifling, the gallery a long rectangle so I didn’t stay long. Out in the street wasn’t any cooler, shopping crowds, tourists, gawpers so I raised an arm (trained to summon attention in NYC  ie do it like you mean it) . 

The taxi seemed to be coming, the driver said something as he went past and I thought he’d gone. 

Over the heads of the crowd a tall young black man called “ Miss !   Miss !  He’s waiting for you round the corner”   I pointed at myself – me ?  “Yes, Miss, yes “ and he pointed.   “Thank you” I said in my big voice “Thank you…”   I was beaten to the cab by a woman with 42 carrier bags so maybe she needed it more.  It was the “Miss” I loved.

Friday I lunched with an old friend the warmth of whose embrace lingers.  And she is younger and happier being blonde – strokes and folks, an object lesson.  Thank you Phoebe.

On Monday Elsie, Bebe and Alice went to glory at the hands of a teenager who stabbed them and anybody else that came his way. Stabbing (I was told by a man who was) is extremely painful and it is going to be very ugly to hear the background of that story. 

Losing a child to  violence is an unbearable thought, an even more demanding reality. 

The vigil in Southport was pushed aside with stones and bottles and violence by people who, for the most part, only know the town because they could read a map.   Pity they don’t to do maps for hell.  And Southport, like Sunderland, came out and cleaned up afterwards – those people’s comments remain largely untold – up to and including the man who bought pizza for a work crew – “It’s what I could do.”

Somewhere in there I managed to wash and dry the loose cover, ticking courtesy of Ian Mankin, whose name I looked up online and from whom, through the charming offices of his studio manager, I bought a reduced recycled cotton spread in colours I love (graphite and ochre).  

And a young woman I’ve spoken to before on the bus, swept me up with her mother and her child, to sit and have coffee

in a pretty busy street in what’s left of the ambiance that used to be Chelsea.  Her husband is in the IDF, the family are South African.  I never do this, I make better coffee cheaper – so this was a real treat for me.  

And I wandered off, to be hugged by Jen who has had health problems ever since Covid, and buy an ankle support (do laugh, knee support right leg, ankle support left leg.  Going to pot – as in poor old thing.)

And I tired – so, stiff upper lip nowhere in sight, I went for the bus where some 20 people  milled about, queues being a thing of the past.  Standing surrounded by them all was a very large very tall man, 6 feet 4 inches square, tee shirt and shorts like bell tents who, when the bus arrived and without a word stretched out his hand to me. I looked at him for a second and gave him my hand.  The people broke round him like water round a rock as he moved me in front of them, supported my right elbow so I could mount saying quietly “Here you go !”  To which I replied over my right shoulder, and into his face “Age before beauty, right ?” And was rewarded by the sweetest smile.   

I am possessed.  No I don’t foam at the mouth for congress with the Devil.  I grin in affectionate memory.  But I am haunted.  It often happens that, as you get older, more distant memories replay with sudden clarity.  Why you didn’t buy that loaf this morning is inexplicable. My memory is as full of holes as Swiss cheese but the bits that are clear come back into sudden focus, often in shortlived flashes,

utterly vivid that makes me smile in recognition. This experience is not influenced by weather, the bank balance or the horrible headlines.

Teaching English to Pola (not her name, and actually imbuing her with the confidence to use the language as well as she soon did) I knew she loved her father.  So I told her about seeing mine, in clothes I could detail down to the socks but in a room he didn’t know, in a chair he had never sat in.  She said ”Anna, you are telling me you believe in ghosts.” I agreed.  Most of mine are benign unto joy, though in expressing a certain kind of usually disapproving vim, my mother emerges from my mouth like a cartoon drawing.  I can feel my face change – and there she is. 

Conjured.

This morning, because her name occurred to me, I looked up the gospel singer Marion Williams whom I saw on tv, when I was 19 doing the ironing in Tenafly, New Jersey in – I discovered – what was a rare appearance on a folk revival music show called Hootenanny.  I saw a white pointed satin shoe with a dizzy heel lay down the beat, the camera came up and we were off.  Never to be forgotten.

My parents sang – not choir, not church, at home for the hell of it.  Of course I joined in, I brought songs from school, bits from the movies.   And the other morning, all these years later, there stood my father in the hall, singing a little song called “River, stay ‘way from my door.”   Music travels

the same way speech does so I don’t know where the song came from.  What I remembered after all these years, was the lyric, like words unscrolled. 

In a recent conversation my son asked had I read any Russian history ?  Where did that come from ?  But it rang a bell.  I fished up the name Orlando from the depths of memory and found the last name Figes.  And I read a primer on its history called The Story of Russia, up to and including Putin which I recommend to anybody.  And remembered Natasha’s Dance which I always thought was a very clever title for the cultural history of Russia which I am currently reading.  And what you get in both books is a profound sense of how ideas travel over time, are subsumed and re-invented.   So you hear what you think is a folk song and it was written in Nashville.   Like one of the few songs my voice will still accommodate.

One of the great successes of High Country (Australian policier on BBC ) is the integration of the impact of unknown wild country

the land has a memory

with two story strands –  a man who has visions and the First Nations history. Australia isn’t a relatively new country, it is a very old one.  They have their unquiet ghosts because of the many years they were there, and then targeted by European settler  policies against the indigenous people.  Cal Flyn wrote about this in Thicker than Water and how she could not sleep overnight on the site of a massacre.

For years I thought that Pop’s reference to death –  he often called it  “the veil” –  was a late Victorian/Edwardian nicety. But it wasn’t.  It was a very old idea indeed.  That’s what love transcends – it transcends time.  Love is – that view, this occasion, those people,  laughter and tears and  my mother’s voice when I complimented her on the wonderful singing violet of a dress she had had made by Mrs. Greenwell – “Of course, darling, it’s your father’s favourite colour.”

I call her  my “hands” because she keeps annalog going

and she is having a holiday – richly deserved

so annalog will return

the week commencing 29th July 2024

God willing, and the creek don’t rise !

Can  you wait till then ?

I do hope so …

A lot of modern life

gives me a headache.  I don’t think I am alone.   I found exactly what I wanted online, filled out the forms including safe (it had better be) credit card details but no copy of invoice, no notification and though I wrote immediately to the contact indicated, it’s been a week  – and nada.

I went into my bank to ask to arrange an ISA and was told they couldn’t do it, would I please do it on line ?   The teller I asked to transfer some money was so exhausted that when she had ploughed it for the third time, I asked if the money had gone through ?  She said no so I took the details back from her to try again at another branch next week.   A young man in Boots told me not to be embarrassed about asking for help with the machines, “they are always going wrong.”

I found a top I liked in the paper today but it is nowhere on the impenetrable website. Clothes for sale without saying what they are made of ?  While Denning remains fascinated by calls referring to the Amazon account he has never had.

On a bus last week we sat, a woman roughly my age and me, and listened to two children (I didn’t turn round and clock their ages) create merry hell unchecked while the mothers spoke on the phone and to each other.   I looked at my companion and said “What a cogent argument for birth control.” 

She nodded feelingly, “Not that you can say that in a lot of places !”  

But the former shadow chancellor John McConnell is pressing the new government to scrap the two-child benefit cap.   Which will cost the earth and send the message that anybody can do anything, having a child is a right.  But it isn’t  – it is a privilege.  Family planning was abandoned long ago to the NHS, sidelining commitment, expertise and the very helpful Balint groups (look them up).   Not everybody thinks or is responsible.   They go with the flow, without thought of the overcrowding of this relatively small country.  

Don’t have children if you don’t want them and if you are in a partnership where one person’s mind changes, that is for negotiation, not pregnancy.   I am biased.  Much of my professional life was spent around people who were (or had) children they accepted as a norm but weren’t particularly keen on.   It is not a good start. 

Having a child is the most altruistic thing many of us will ever do and when everybody is through being sentimental about families, every child is an only child, a one off, an original.  

Parenthood makes terrific demands and if you’re lucky, there may be terrific rewards.  But it’s a chunk of time, you need money in backup for dentistry, extra tuition, a new football – and if you have the brains God gave a turnip, you as the adult will learn, learn and learn again, hopefully only minimally on the child.

This is the era of mixed messages: anybody can do anything – but they can’t. Sold on the idea that health care should be free, however you get it, it costs the earth (and listening to what a chronically ill friend of mine goes through to fill prescriptions is most unsettling.)   Building programmes  can’t begin until there is a comprehensive census of vacant properties.  I did  one of my first programme on this  50 years ago and we haven’t got very far.   There is endless promotion soft and hard of AI, algorithms, computer, machines – but where are the people going whose jobs are superceded by the rise of the machine – bearing in mind that the insatiable demand for men and women for basic often badly paid soul destroying repetitive tasks doesn’t make for a happy healthy future and opens the door to a shaming form of neocolonialism ie  come here and mop up after us . 

Right, blessing counting- relative health and strength, beautiful scenery in a rather effective new Australian  cop mystery  (BBC1 ), some support for the beginning of  a new parliament, a new government and so, on we go ….

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The walls are fine, everything in White Tie except for the chimney breast which is Brinjal.    I wonder how much they pay the people who come up with names for Farrow & Ball of whom I often heard it said great colours, poor paint.  I moved things aside slowly and replaced them in a slightly different order, equally slowly, dusting and washing all the way.   I do my spring cleaning when I can and anyway, I’m not even sure we had a spring.

You may have noticed – we had a election ?                                             Tick.

You may have noticed – lots of football and tennis ?                                Tick.

You may have noticed a music festival at Glastonbury ?                          Tick.

I shall not be saying anything about the above beyond the thought that if you call on Boris Johnson for anything other than a cheeseburger,

you are desperate.

A tile came loose on the front step.  Within 24 hours, there were three, woggling like wonky teeth.   I called Pimlico Plumbers who have succeeded and multiplied, effective if expensive.  However in my limited experience of them , they keep time, know what they are doing and do it.  They diversified into carpentry and all sorts of other lucrative byways and now have a section for Small Jobs.  And getting small jobs done is getting very difficult.   Small jobs ignored become too easily bigger ones – so I booked

and along came a man who did the job in half an hour.   

The upstairs tenant whom I had informed mentioned the letting agency (whitter whitter, inside the property different from out, finger in mouth) or the landlady ?  Hell freezes over faster.  By the time we might expect a decision, the step would be no more.   Don’t always have the money but this time, put it where the mouth is.

Laughed aloud at the beginning of yesterday’s piece by the fashion director of The Times about Lady Starmer’s early wardrobe appearances – “Now the election is over let’s talk about what really matters: Lady Starmer’s wardrobe.”

One of the saddest things about modern life is that when you really want to write and say how much you enjoyed something, you can’t:

you can complain, take out a subscription, complain about a subscription, sign up to online whatever it is, follow whoever on social media but the number of people to whom you can write in appreciation is now minimal.

I understand.  Of course I understand.   The world is full of people and quite a lot of them are horrible (ask Holly Willoughby  – and she’s not alone).  If people are gutless, unpleasant and violent, modern media serves them well.  They can make mischief and can’t be held accountable.   Troll city. 

But the casualty is the positive – wanting to write appreciatively, a couple of lines for example to a woman who wrote wonderfully about the culture of the whinge, dog with sore paw syndrome, prizing (as she wrote) suffering over resilience.   I channelled some of the latter so that when I gave up in the face of the obfuscation of her employing journal, I looked online.   Write to her care of her representation ?  I tried.  Well, I suppose if terrestrial television programming is as bad as it is, you might care to spend half an hour on this.  Or having your teeth drawn…  I wished her well and went to do the shopping.

Faith (see annalog/modern life) and her partner have had a terrible health scare through which they are working and I saw her yesterday for the first time since Mags (partner) collapsed.  The news is good, hooray, swift catch up between bananas and salad  “and “ she said sweetly, almost blushing” we’re getting married next year.”    She was so happy, you could reach out and touch it.

I’ve found a new writer a black high school dropout from Richmond, Virginia – his description – who ties big themes to mayhem and violence with no cliches I have noticed.

And few write about the rural poor black in the US, especially one of their own.  Plus the sheer stickability of 40 books and short pieces.   The song in the title is composed by Harold Arlen, words by Johnny Mercer – read in brackets, get on with it.